Man Shopping

You know how it is when you're looking for something and you can't find it? The harder you look the more elusive it becomes. Then the minute you compromise or give up all together, boom! there it is.

I've been searching for months now for a rug for my foyer. I've been tempted several times to buy one I didn't really want just to get the search over with. But I know the minute I do, I'll find the one I've been looking for.

My friend is kind of in that situation right now. Only her rug is a man. We could take that analogy for a mile. :) But let's not. LOL I'm really not a male basher. I love men too much.

Back to my friend. After her marriage ended she set lofty expectations for every man she dated. She promised herself she wouldn't make the same mistake she made the first go round. So for years she shunned advances from several men most women wouldn't shun. Then finally the loneliness got the better of her and she latched onto a man who didn't meet her post-marriage criteria. Now they're in a relationship. He's happy. She pretends to be. She's committed. Loyal. Everything she expects the man in her life to be.

So guess what happened. She met Mr. Wonderful. The one she'd been looking for. The one who takes her breath away and promises everything she swore she'd find if she ever committed herself again. The only problem: she did commit herself again. Before she found Mr. Wonderful. She committed herself to the man she pretends to be happy with. Her children have bonded with her boyfriend. He loves her. He believes her when she says she loves him. And she refuses to break his trust. She'll never cheat on him and she won't walk away. So where does that leave her? In a relationship that fulfills everyone but her. With a man she can depend on, but who -through no fault of his own- can't take her breath away. Only, he kind of has...she tells me she feels like she can't breathe.

But then maybe she's the one who took her own breath away. Her boyfriend found the rug he was looking for. She's the one who gave up the search too soon.

Good luck to everyone out there rug shopping. I hope you find exactly what you're looking for.

Meanwhile, check out my latest release! Back at the Ranch (Cowboy Games 2) came out yesterday. It's my first M/M erotic romance.

Wendi Darlin
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